Scotty24360/suicide guilt trip

<Scotty24360

[06:55:28] (You): Why are you doing this? Don't kill yourself.....
[06:55:44] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): because
[06:55:45] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i cant
[06:55:46] (You): I wouldn't want you to do that... dont waste your life because of online situations please
[06:55:47] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): take
[06:55:47] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): it
[06:55:49] (You): Dont
[06:55:55] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ive begged and cried for days
[06:55:56] (You): I am begging you Scott. Dont do it.
[06:56:26] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ive tried to tell everyone to talk to me so i could say sorry, it wasnt my fault, i wasnt acting right, ive begged for help, ive begged for someone to care, but even YOU told me no one cares
[06:57:54] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ive cried and hurt for days that people who PROMISED me they would have my back, dropped me, like i was a bag of shit
[06:57:57] (You): i say that in general because im pissed at how you treated me.
[06:58:18] (You): if I came to you would you stop this?
[06:58:22] (You): Would you calm down....?
[06:58:30] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): no i dont think so
[06:58:30] (You): Would you not do anything?
[06:58:32] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i tried
[06:58:38] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): im to far gone
[06:58:42] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ive lost everyone i loved
[06:58:46] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): cared for
[06:58:51] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): looked at as my best friends
[06:59:37] (You): The difference between a hour ago and now is the fact m trying to save your life, Scott. I am many things. I know I am heartless. I know I am a bitch, but I am not heartless enough to let someone die....
[07:00:08] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): now everyone just wants to put me in a mental hospital
[07:00:16] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): but everyone drove me to this point
[07:00:18] (You): I'm not tring to put you in a mental hospital
[07:00:19] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and now they care?
[07:00:48] (You): Everyone im standing around right now, dont care. Except those who are robably talking to you and telling you not too.
[07:01:08] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): only you
[07:01:10] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): mia dont
[07:01:13] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): tokki dont
[07:01:28] (You): Mia doesnt want part of the drama.
[07:01:36] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): its drama huh
[07:01:45] (You): to him its been drama all night
[07:03:38] (You): So please.... Dont do anything to yourself...
[07:04:41] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): well they wont have to deal with it anymore
[07:04:57] (You): Stop it!
[07:05:10] (You): Dont even fucking talk like that Scott... That's nothing to joke or threaten about....
[07:05:24] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): what everyone isnt getting
[07:05:27] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): is days ago
[07:06:03] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): last week, i was happy, i was normal, i had a anxeity attack, then i snapped. and one by one ive been losing everyone
[07:06:09] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): one by one
[07:06:21] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): my friends have drove me into not sleeping for days, i havent eaten
[07:06:34] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i just wanted my friends,
[07:06:38] (You): Then go sleep... Eat...
[07:06:42] (You): i'm coming...
[07:06:47] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i dont want to anymore,
[07:06:50] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): please dont
[07:07:18] (You): here are you?
[07:07:35] (You): Where are you, TP me. This isnt funny anymore Scott.
[07:07:42] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): im at a place that no one knows about, and look
[07:07:45] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): im trying to calm down
[07:07:50] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): but even if i make it through this
[07:07:55] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): who is gnna wanna be my friend
[07:08:32] (You): Tp me....
[07:08:41] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): now everyone can talk about how psyco i am, and what a loser and stuff i am
[07:08:57] (You): TP Me, Scott.
[07:09:02] Second Life: 

[07:09:06] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): there...
[07:09:39] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): even your wearing mugens tag
[07:09:50] (You): yes
[07:09:53] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): everyone has turned against me cuz of her who started the damn rumors in the first place
[07:09:55] (You): because she thought you were going to grief the sim
[07:10:06] (You): because you told her
[07:10:10] (You): you were going to create an alt
[07:10:11] (You): come there
[07:10:11] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i was fine days ago till she started her damn rumors
[07:10:13] (You): load a gun
[07:10:16] (You): and blow your head off
[07:10:18] (You): over the mic
[07:10:21] (You): WTF ARE YOU THINKING!?
[07:10:30] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): yell more
[07:10:33] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): push me
[07:10:34] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): DO IT
[07:10:41] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): tell me what else they all say about me
[07:10:44] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): what was it, stalker?
[07:11:09] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): if they cared
[07:11:10] (You): Scott. I didnt come here to yell at you. Im furious yes but right now I need you to calm down.
[07:11:17] (You): and yes, they all think you're a lunatic and a stalker
[07:11:20] (You): Hell
[07:11:24] (You): you were scaring Mia and Me earlier
[07:11:28] (You): and that one guy
[07:11:30] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): they pushed me to being this way
[07:11:30] (You): but thats not the point
[07:11:38] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and they still blaim me
[07:11:43] (You): Who cares what other people thinks?
[07:11:43] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): its unreal
[07:11:46] (You): They're just online
[07:11:47] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): I DO
[07:11:48] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): I
[07:11:49] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): DO
[07:11:55] (You): NOT LIKE YOU WILL MEET THEM SCOTT
[07:12:01] (You): Why should a lion be bothered
[07:12:01] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): how hard is it for people to get i fucking care
[07:12:03] (You): by sheep?
[07:12:09] (You): Why should a lion be bothered by sheep?
[07:12:19] (You): People will talk. That is how life is....
[07:12:19] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i have met them
[07:12:21] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): the real them
[07:12:32] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): see in secondlife you know people for who they really are
[07:12:51] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): you see there dreams, hopes, who they are inside, they can bring shape and voice to it
[07:13:02] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): those people thinking im a lunitic, i listened daily to them
[07:13:16] (You): you say all of this but you're throwing things away by listening to sheep
[07:13:20] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i feel like ive lost my kids or something and i really did lose a child
[07:13:33] (You): Scott, listen to me carefully...
[07:13:45] (You): First you need to take breaths, ignore everything and settle down.
[07:13:53] (You): Obsessing about it isnt going to fix anything.
[07:13:57] (You): The more you create alts
[07:14:00] (You): the worse it will be
[07:14:05] (You): You cant continue to do that....
[07:14:35] (You): I never cave to unblock people...
[07:14:47] (You): But when I heard you threatened to kill yourself, no. I dont take that joke lightly
[07:14:52] (You): heresay or otherwise
[07:15:20] (You): If you have been sick honestly, then fine... Being upset over online situations really isn't going to do any good for you
[07:15:38] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i let my daughter down
[07:15:42] (You): If you have PTSD, then explains why you flip easily.
[07:15:47] (You): Beside the point.
[07:15:49] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): my sim is failing
[07:16:04] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ive let mia down after so much money shes put in
[07:16:11] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i ran off people she loved
[07:16:17] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): she needs better then me
[07:17:05] (You): Perhaps so, but that makes you the bigger person to admit it and shows you can admit that in ways you are not a monster. You care for other's interests even knowing you arent -good- for them.
[07:17:30] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): if my friends would come
[07:17:35] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ugh
[07:17:37] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): nevemind
[07:18:07] (You): No great achievements and goals are ended with big forceful steps.
[07:18:15] (You): You have to take baby steps, Scott.
[07:18:22] (You): You cant just bull rush everything.
[07:18:24] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): imnot a ki
[07:18:25] (You): People dont work that way
[07:18:25] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): kid
[07:18:29] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i know how things work
[07:18:38] (You): Well, you're doing it wrong.
[07:18:40] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): im tired of people leaving me
[07:18:42] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): im sick of it
[07:18:51] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): im tired of
[07:18:57] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): how tokki can say the same shit
[07:18:58] (You): That is why things are happening the way they are.... You're handling it wrong.
[07:19:02] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and her still have friends
[07:19:07] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): no
[07:19:10] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): handling it wrong?
[07:19:16] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): mia gets mad over the smallest things
[07:19:24] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): tokki threatened suicide
[07:19:34] (You): yes and he will probably get mad at me for speaking to you
[07:19:41] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): but scotty got a tiny bit mad over something he couldnt control in him self
[07:19:43] (You): but everyone needs to understand how i am
[07:19:44] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and i love everything
[07:20:01] (You): sit, Scott.
[07:20:19] (You): Yes... WE all have tempers
[07:20:23] (You): I have a temper
[07:20:33] (You): I am also stubborn
[07:20:36] (You): and rebellious
[07:20:43] (You): and thick headed
[07:20:49] (You): and terribly niave
[07:20:55] (You): I am Kristi
[07:20:58] (You): That is how I work
[07:21:46] (You): I am either your best friend or nothing at all. I love people. I want to help people. But don't shit on me or I walk. I dont like bullshit. I never have. I will do anything for my friends until you show me otherwise.
[07:22:28] (You): I want you to understand...
[07:22:40] (You): And I know you know this as much as I do
[07:22:47] (You): That life is not meant to be easy, online and offline.
[07:22:52] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): if u can get my friends to tell me they care een a little bit
[07:22:56] (You): Online we can make our life easy or as hard as we want...
[07:22:56] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): eve
[07:22:58] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): even
[07:23:10] (You): But I am just one person, Scott. I am not a miracle worker
[07:23:15] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): but why should i
[07:23:20] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): my dad never cared
[07:23:20] (You): Why shouldn't you?
[07:23:27] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): my mom left when i was a kid
[07:23:39] (You): You OWE it to yourself to do great things.
[07:23:42] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): my gf of 8 years cheated and left me for a 40 year old
[07:23:47] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): my last ex candice
[07:23:49] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): left
[07:23:51] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): everyone
[07:23:52] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): leave me
[07:23:58] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): why dont anyone want me...
[07:24:12] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): whats so broken about me, when i was always happy putting others before my self
[07:24:13] (You): I see... You have abandonment issues.
[07:24:21] (You): I can understand that.
[07:24:26] (You): That feel of unwant and emptiness
[07:24:30] (You): and not understanding why
[07:25:14] (You): Nothing is broken with you Scott.... You just prove to be too much for some people. Some people do not want to try to understand things that they dont wish too.
[07:25:22] (You): I dont know why.
[07:25:29] (You): If I had the answers id give them but I dont
[07:27:19] (You): You just need to rest your head, Scott. The tiredness could lead to delirious behaviors. I know you are probably exhausted and over worked if you hadnt slept or eaten in days....
[07:27:35] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i never did anythhing to mia and mugen and all of them, i tpd to the sim and they was all talking bad about me, i was fine even after that, but they all left me and rumors got started, then i started begging for acceptance even trying with alts only once more to be ignored and muted each time
[07:28:14] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and what hurts the most
[07:28:16] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): is john
[07:28:23] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): someone i considered my best friend
[07:28:26] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): stayed with them
[07:28:30] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): ive sat at my sim alone
[07:28:43] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): no visitors really, no one
[07:28:55] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and you
[07:29:00] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): siding with them
[07:29:03] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and the things u said
[07:29:21] (You): Scott, we didnt exactly end on good terms.
[07:29:42] (You): You alt hopped and threatened me after you had that long talk of belittling me and trying to correct me...
[07:29:52] (You): even after I explained and told you how I felt
[07:29:59] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): mia told me you told him i called him a nasty freak
[07:30:02] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and u know i never did that
[07:30:12] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): so yes i got on a alt and was furious
[07:30:13] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): why
[07:30:16] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): cuz it was a rumor
[07:30:20] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): and look where those land you
[07:30:54] (You): thought you said you couldn't remember? which is it?
[07:31:18] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i remember not calling him a nasty freak
[07:31:20] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): thats for sure
[07:31:28] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): cuz something like that wouldnt come out of my mouth
[07:31:45] (You): you were pretty mad Scott
[07:31:53] (You): you said a lot of hurtful things that evening
[07:35:16] (You): But I didnt come here to argue with you.
[07:35:27] (You): I came here to make sure you werent going to do anything stupid to yourself...
[07:35:37] (You): I cant live with myself, if you did something horrible to yourself
[07:35:44] (You): id feel like its my fault if you did
[07:40:53] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): [06:38] вατïlḋα ṃïṉï ṃøṉṡτεɾ ṃсαṉḋɾεώṡ (batygurl): idc what you have dickbag your a sorry loser with fake ptsd trying to be a god on sl when your nothing but a piece of shit person sitting behind a screen making others feel bad about themselves just to make yourself feel better
[07:41:23] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): [06:36] вατïlḋα ṃïṉï ṃøṉṡτεɾ ṃсαṉḋɾεώṡ (batygurl): and i will be reporting you and your IP will be banned for good
[07:41:32] (You): just ignore them.
[07:41:41] (You): the smart thing you can do is just stop responding Scott...
[07:42:05] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): fake ptsd
[07:42:10] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): gnna have my account deleted
[07:42:12] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): yeah
[07:42:26] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): that was the straw that broe the camels back
[07:42:28] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): goodbye
[07:42:33] (You): everyone knwos full and well LL wont do much about it.
[07:43:41] (You): scott
[07:43:43] (You): please
[07:43:53] (You): dnt pay attention to them...
[07:43:58] (You): just focus on me
[07:44:11] (You): ignore them, pretend they dont exist
[07:44:17] (You): the more you respond the worse its goign to get
[07:46:46] (You): ....Scott....?
[07:49:13] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): i was saying goodbye to everyone
[07:49:16] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): on a freaking alt
[07:49:20] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): guess why
[07:49:21] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): cuz
[07:49:26] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): they all have me fucking MUTED
[07:49:42] (You): -_-
[07:50:10] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): вατïlḋα ṃïṉï ṃøṉṡτεɾ ṃсαṉḋɾεώṡ (batygurl) is the person you can think for finally pushing me over the edge
[07:50:22] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): fake ptsd my ass, they dont know the hell i deal with
[07:50:42] (You): most people dont understand PTSD, no.
[07:52:13] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): anyways saorei, thanks for caring,.. but my hearts pretty well set on what i wanna do, its as i said, if i make it out of this, no one will look at me the same again, hell u wouldnt even want me, you only here because your trying to talk me out of dying. more then any of them did but u didnt give a shit about me till i made my choice. listen, with your new guy...be careful, and good luck ok?
[07:52:19] Đαℜӄ αȼσи (scotty24360): goodbye saorei
[07:53:05] (You): Scott... Raikousen quit. Not the point. You dont have to do this
[07:53:22] (You): What matters is that im trying, that should count for something, please come back.
[07:53:56] (You): I cant HAVE you doing this to yourself, its self destructive and this is not a joke...
[07:54:10] (You): Scott, please?
[07:55:36] (You): I didnt give a shit because in reality, why should I, you threw my friendship away. That is my reasoning but I am not a cold hearted person...
[07:55:45] (You): I love, and I care, like everyone else
[07:55:51] (You): You DONT have to do this, Scott.
[07:55:53] (You): Please come back