Kevin Havens/The Smokerchip Document

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What follows is the Smokechip documant as retrieved here. The only alterations were those made for formatting purposes.

A LOOK INSIDE KEVIN HAVEN'S HEAD

It is important to note that the following statements are taken from blog and forum postings, many of which have been removed, but archived. This is not a legal document, nor does it claim to be. The veracity of the quotes depends on the mindset and intentions of Kevin Havens at the time those statements were made. No mental or psychological diagnosis is implied by any of this material. This material has been distributed to local authorities in Virginia Beach, VA. It was sent to law enforcement, the city atty, Beach House, another city health agency, and Adult Protective Services. The goals were to improve the standard of care of Kathryn Gage and hopefully get Kevin Havens plugged into community health services. There was success in getting Kat better service, but Adult Protective Services was the only agency that responded. This digest is by no means a complete record of statements by or about Kevin Havens. Much of what Kevin has self reported was on his blog, which has been archived at this site: [1] and on the website dollforum.com under the username Casperghostboy.

COMPLAINT OF CHILD MOLESTATION (UNKNOWN IF BEING INVESTIGATED)

Will Havens, the brother of Kevin Havens, stated that Kevin Havens had molested him when Will Havens was aged nine. Will Havens also asserted that Kevin Havens had molested their sister. (April 29, 2009)somethingawful.com, username jtotal "You know... I never really wanted to bring this out... but... my brother molested me when I was 9. I had put it in the back of my head and forgot all about it until I was told about it at 16. He did the same to my younger sister. I strongly believe he has pedophilia in his blood." This is an unverified statement, so verification of this statement will have to be sought from the family members of Kevin Havens. It is merely hearsay at this point, so beware giving it the full weight of truth. It may well be false. This is a serious accusation to make without substantial supporting evidence. It is included here as a quote from a family member and may have no truth or validity.(Will Havens on 8-14-2009 stated his support but felt as if the well has gone dry. Godspeed Will).

UPDATE:

As of May 09, 2010, Kathryn Gage has demanded that Kevin Havens leave her apartment and no longer be involved in her care. He is now homeless and has stated that he has "married" his doll "Daphne" He is a vulnerable adult with severe mental illness and is in need of intervention. KEVIN HAVENS actions regarding Kathryn Gage (Sample of referral quotes Appendix A) If he considers himself "off the clock" it is difficult to prompt him to attend to the needs of Kathryn Gage. (A1, A2) Kathryn Gage requires a low-carbohydrate diet, as a diabetic, but Kevin Havens is responsible for obtaining food for the household. Kevin Havens reports buying much fast food and buys food that results in an inadequate diet for the needs of Kathryn Gage. (A3) The attitude of Kevin Havens towards Kathryn Gage is reflected in the following: "But I think that Kathryn is the best free porn that I've ever been with (No offense, sweetie)." Date unknown, dollforum.com Continuing with his objectification of Kathryn Gage, he frequently refers to her as a "Real Girl" [RG] in terms of her not being a "Real Doll," a high-end doll for the purposes of sexual intercourse. (A4) Kevin Havens also at one point referred to Kathryn Gage as part of his "1-RG, 3-doll harem."(A4) An uncomfortable theme of Kathryn Gage being an equivalent to one of his "dolls" is quoted below: After all, we just don't "fuck" our dolls, quite a lot of us treat our dolls like people they'd like to be. After all, some people equated doll ownership, especially the heavier silicone dolls, as taking care of a quadriplegic that needs all kinds of assistance, because, until fully ambulatory dolls come about, they cannot move and we have to do all of their moving." October 26?, 2008, dollforum.com Kathryn Gage has indicated distress regarding Kevin Havens' paraphilia for "dolls" (A5, A6) The "dolls" are placed on the bed in the 600 square foot, one-bedroom apartment and Kathryn Gage must sleep either in her wheelchair or a recliner in the living room. Resources belonging to Kathryn Gage are being re-routed into Kevin Havens' "doll hobby": "Kat is being nice and letting me use her savings account to save up for my silicone doll that I have been pining for, whatever kind that I would like and what I am willing to save up for." Wed June 11, 2008 dollforum.com (SEE ADDENDUM) Most disturbing: While Kathryn Gage was in intensive care, Kevin Havens infers that he is waiting for her to die and will use the bequest from her death to purchase a "RealDoll" from Abyss Creations. (A8) ADDENDUM: Kevin Havens admitted in the chatroom of dollforum.com that he had "hit" Kat while he had been drinking and was angry. Kathryn called her her case manger. Adult Protective Services interviewed Kathryn Gage and as a result, Kevin Havens has been removed from a fully-paid state position as her care-giver. There are personal aides that come to the home of Kathryn Gage to care for her now, being paid from Ms. Gage's benefits. At this time, Kevin Havens is also being paid as a part-time carer from those same funds, at the wish of Kathryn Gage. UPDATE: The following is a statement from Kevin Havens, posting as CasperGhostboy on dollforum.com, March 10, 2010: OK. Here's my little insight on this debate. I don't know where in the heck SA is getting this "information" that I have been neglecting Kat, albeit "casually." Yes, APS has stepped in a few times, but Kat and I believe that this information has been released by someone in Human Services who was a mole and released private, confidential information for the entire Internet to see. I have never, except this time, stated that Kat was abused, because this is a DOLL forum, not a drama forum. And also, I'm neither confirming nor denying that it has, had or will happen. That information was supposed to be kept within the confines of the social worker (and the person who was with her last July or August) and the human/social services agency, not be released to an Internet forum, and it should have remained confidential. The Commonwealth of Virginia has stiff penalties for social workers who release confidential information. Unfortunately, since Kat and I do not exactly know the person who did it, because when I was trying to look at her city employee badge, she immediately flipped it over to where her name, photo and department worked in was hidden. And the last time a social worker came to the house, she gave me a strict, but terse, ultimatum: I hit or abuse Kat in any way, I go to jail. So, the past three months has been nothing but happiness, loving and TLC. Right now, Kat doesn't need my attention until a bit later, and I'm gonna cook up some roast beef in gravy and a couple of side veggies. Then I'm gonna fire up my PS3 and play some Guitar Hero, albeit suckily. And if Kat wants to play her Wii, I'll let her. I do work, and sometimes my attention is directed toward her, taking care of her to the best of my ability. But Kat is a very independent woman, and she lets me do some things that doesn't require my attention for her. And I do see someone for my "mental issues." I just seen him last Friday. I see him again in two months. 'Nuff said. And Kat is not, under any circumstances whatsoever, my "doll financer." When me and two other aides work for her, we are paid through a fiscal agent. And that is not tax-free income. I know that I said that I was going to buy a RealDoll in about a year and a half, but when someone brushed out Daphne and Tiffany's wigs, I saw them in a brand-new, different light and I abdicated my idea to buy a RealDoll, because I have an emotional attachment to Daphne like I do with Kat, and without Kat, none of us can exist. But Kat does not give me any money to go for anything doll. Not for new dolls, and not for clothes or wigs for my existing dolls. And I just mentioned an important thing: Without Kat for me, and me for Kat, we cannot exist. And someone told me that in almost every relationship today, there will be arguments, fights over sometimes silly things. I might have taken it too far and might have acted inappropriately, but I now regret what I have done, and I'm glad that I'm not in jail for what I had done, because the social worker could have done it without any remorse, but they always say to not count your chickens before they hatch. But now all Kat and I are doing are being respectful for each other, and if the feeling to snap comes up, I instantly throw on my shoes and walk around the block smoking a cigarette or two until I'm calmed down and have a clearer mind to talk it over in a more civil manner. And about my dolls, they are, for right now, friends that cannot move or talk, because Kat even talks to them (in a role-playing state); and sexual surrogates whenever the feeling strikes, and Kat doesn't want it for any reason whatsoever. But for the most part, they are residing in a closet when they are not needed, but they do come out once in a good while. And about my red "beetface" on that photo of me and Daphne circulating around the Internet: That was taken by Kat herself. I was sunburned because I was outside for a while enjoying a beautiful day, and that night, I asked Kat to take a picture of me and Daphne together, but I thought my red face was diminished, but her camera had a bright flash and a very sensitive CCD and caught my face all beet red. While it was Sofa King We Todd Ed for me to post that photo, and I regret it now, nearly three years after that photo was taken, but the damage has been already done. And at that time, I didn't know better, because when I was on good terms with Davecat, he shown a few photos of him with Sidore on his personal website (not counting the TV documentaries with Davecat in it), and it didn't pass my mind on the consequences if I did it myself. (Oh, and if anyone thinks that it's a side effect of Accutane, I hadn't taken that in 14 years!) But I do want to express my thanks for those in this thread who were defending me and the hobby in general. If anyone thinks I'm a cruel person who drinks himself shitfaced then takes his aggressions out on his live-in girlfriend who cannot easily defend herself because of her disability and then goes running to his dolls (or whatever it is), that is a wholly incorrect assumption of me. I hadn't had an alcoholic beverage since New Year's Eve, my drink of choice lately has been Monster Energy, because I can get a case of 24 at Sam's Club for a good deal, and really, I am more of a gentle giant than a Dr. Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde kind of person. It would be pretty nice for me to explain this in more detail, but I think I've already crossed the line into TMI and Kat and I have basically renewed our respect for each other. Basically, bottom line is that when Kat and I lived with my mother, she basically drained energy from me and Kat making us worry about her petty bullshit and kind of made me wonder why I was giving her most of my paycheck when she, herself, has a job and other sources of income, but my brother is also an energy-drainer because he enforces that worry onto others in the same living arrangement. It basically took a year and a half for me to basically ask "How High?" when Kat says "Jump!" IOW, when she asks me to do something for her, I enact on it immediately, not tell her to let me have a smoke (which I do outside, I have a bench and ashtray on the patio), or do something on my computer or whatever, I just do it. (I might ask to let her let me get a sip of my Coke or Monster before I act on it, but that's it.) OK, I just said my insight, I tried to make it short, but I guess my long-windiness doing things like this went a little bit too much. CGM, Kathryn, Daphne and Tiffany Edit: Grammar error. CasperGhostboy, Kathryn, Daphne and Tiffany My Doll-Friends: [2] The best part of waking up, is Ubuntu in your cup!' Subtle admissions and discreet atonements, mixed with very little of his usual self-centredness. Someone did a good job helping him write that. It would be an interesting challenge to find one other example of his writing that matched this in emotional appeal and comprehension. At least the other people in that forum know that Kevin is not the paragon of offended innocence they may have thought he was. For the record, no social worker or anyone connected with social services in Virginia Beach has provided any information. All information presented here has been taken from blogs and forum posts made by Kevin Havens and can be examined at the cited locations. Thurs. March 25, 2010 The Doll Forum, dollforum.com

REGARDING "BEACH HOUSE" AND THE VIRGINIA BEACH MENTAL HEALTH SERVICES

(Sample of referral quotes, Appendix B) Regarding "Beach House" and the Virginia Beach mental health services, which he insists on calling the "Mothership" Kevin Havens maintains "a list" of the people connected with mental health services in Virginia Beach who he alleges have "fucked him over," possibly both workers and clients: Natalie Murphy Jerry MacCauley Linda Dunleavy Dr. Devitt Becky Hovorka Debra Amme (see B6) Debra Wilcher (See B1) Amy Darden (see B6) Natalie Baker Glenn Welch Jason Johnson Angela Jarman Kristen Goenner Patricia Griggs Suzanne Manzi Laura Fowler Kevin Havens harbors paranoia regarding being "stalked" online by Beach House staff and members. He says these people want to take him back to Beach House (B3, B4) Kevin Havens also has written "songs", which he calls "Reduxes" which are archived at [3], containing violent lyrics aimed toward a living person. Called "Chesapeake Rhapsody," Keith Richardson is targeted. Full lyrics in Appendix B (B5), example verse:

  Mama, just killed Keith Richardson
  Put a gun to his motherfuckin' head,
  Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
  Mama, I don't care if his life has begun
  But I threw it all away
  Mama, oooo....
  Didn't mean to make his mama cry
  But if I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
  Carry on, carry on, but Keith never mattered.

It is important to note that this violent imagery regards a living person.

OBSESSION AND DELUSIONS REGARDING MANNEQUINS AND "DOLLS"

(Sample of referral quotes in Appendix C) By his own report, Kevin Havens has strong sexual attraction to mannequins and anatomically correct dolls manufactured for the purpose of sexual intercourse. Kevin Havens refers to himself and other "doll enthusiasts" as Agalmatophiles. Kevin Havens has been counseled by the Virginia Beach mental health services regarding this paraphilia, which he is practicing to an extreme degree. He is encouraged in this behavior by the forum at http://dollforum.com Some Virginia Beach city agency has at least at one point been aware of his obsession with "love dolls" and mannequins. This interest has been labeled "delusional" during his time of attendance of a day program at "Beach House." Kevin Havens owns a "Real Solid Sex Doll (RSSD)" he has named "Daphne Catherine Holland"; used to own but has discarded a silicone "First Personal Companion (1st PC) doll" he named "Nicole";has discarded a mannequin he had named "Andrea Difford"; and has recently purchased a new RSSD he has named "Tiffany" after the 10 year old star of "Small Wonder". He spends a large portion of his benefits and the benefits of Kathryn Gage each month buying new clothes and things the "dolls need." He has stated several times on dollforum.com that he intends to spend benefits received by himself and Kathryn Gage to purchase more "dolls". Resources belonging to Kathryn Gage are being re-routed into Kevin Havens' "doll hobby": "Kat is being nice and letting me use her savings account to save up for my silicone doll that I have been pining for, whatever kind that I would like and what I am willing to save up for." Wed June 11, 2008 dollforum.com. In his own words on dollforum.com on October 11,2009, he estimates that he has spent over $2,000 on clothing and other accessories for the dolls. [4] Pictures of the dolls can be found at [5] Kevin Havens engages in sexual activities with these "dolls" and has been doing so from Wednesday Oct 04, 2006 to the present time. " I don't have "sex" with my mannequin, per se, but I do masturbate on her by taking her clothes off and then while she's on her stand, I do my "thing" on her. But then, that's why my RSSD is there... " July 13,2008 dollforum.com "And before I go say something else, I had tried something, but I am getting kind of uncertain if it would create further damage if I keep on doing it over and over, so many times it might tear. A lot of you who have seen and who have Candy18s know they have a fixed open mouth. Just out of curiosity, I had pressed the lips together and they created the most sexiest pouting look. I just had to fuck her then and there, and of course, it sprung back to the open position, but it made me see Daphne in a different light. But when I pressed the lips together, it made a profound crease in her left cheek, about two inches across and about an eighth of an inch in depth. That's why I'm concerned that if I kept on doing it over and over again to get the sexy pouting look that I think that I am the first to find out that you can get a pouting look with a Candy18 by pressing the lips together, that it may tear a tear the length and depth that was created every time I make Daphne pout. (Hint, hint, itsme! Maybe you can create an alternative Candy18 face with the look that I created, but still make the mouth functional!) Still, I don't have any pictures, but when I get my camera back, I will post pictures. I promise. (But still, I don't "use" the mouth for fellatio. I only use it to French-kiss her.) " Sat Nov 03, 2007 dollforum.com Kevin Havens calls these dolls his "girlfriends" and his "doll wife", and has mapped out kinship ties between the dolls. (C3) Kevin Havens ascribes emotions, personality traits and behavior to the dolls. Kevin Havens has self-reported that his "dolls" talk to him. Kevin Havens currently insists that his conversations with the dolls are real and influence his actions. (C1, C2, C3) He is encouraged in these behaviors by the forum at dollforum.com. The following are quotes taken from his postings there, demonstrating adverse psychological effects: Self-isolating behavior "As a few had probably already warned, don't consider the doll as a complete replacement for the love you are giving your RG. This is only my opinion, but I treat my Daphne as a surrogate/virtual friend, because I have no real friends outside of TDF, but I do have quite a few online friends here on TDF, some I hope to meet someday offline outside of TDF. Sometimes I do have sex with Daphne (since Andrea is only a mannequin, it's nigh impossible to have sex with her unless I do some serious mods), but that's infrequent and only when my RG is not in the mood but I am and only under her strict permission. Otherwise, it's in the bathroom with a magazine... "June25, 2008, dollforum.com ("RG" means Real Girl, "TDF" pertains to dollforum.com) "Even my mother is wanting the same thing: Dump Kat, dispose of or sell the dolls, and come back home with momma and we'll get you a nice life, the one you were used to, at "BH". Then they would say that my ownership of dolls is making me "lose friends" and why would I be "talking to a piece of rubber that won't be talking back." Without giving out TMI, they think that someone talking to something that doesn't give a verbal response (pets are excluded) is being delusional (remember how Lars was in the movie?) and needs intensive treatment for "fixing" that "problem." Sorry, not for me." Thu Sep 04, 2008 The "BH" referred to is Beach House, a part of the community health care system in Virginia Beach. Lack of judgment, insight, and/or personal boundaries Kevin Havens routinely posts sensitive information such as his home address, phone number, his full name and the full names of his family members. This renders him and members of his family vulnerable to intrusions of privacy. Examples of this can be found at: [6] Kevin Havens engages in repetitive imitative behavior, copying those around him without regard to the benefits or risks to him. He is easily influenced by stronger personalities. His own personal integrity is compromised or subsumed in the presence of these agents.

Aberrant public behavior Example taken from dollforum.com August 28, 2008: Taking "Daphne," an obvious sex toy, to the public pool at his apartment complex. Obsessions Kevin Havens exhibits obsessive behavior patterns, based on his self report. This includes an obsession with the television show "Small Wonder" and its child star, Tiffany Brissette (C4); the musical group "Squeeze"; the movies "UHF" and "Mannequin", and less frequently "Lars and the Real Girl".

Kevin Havens also shows obsessive behavior regarding a story he has written and re-written regarding "dolls", called "The Journey to Love." This document is now in its 8th iteration. It is archived at [7]

APPENDIX A: EXAMPLE QUOTES REGARDING CARE OF KATHRYN GAGE

A1

"But no, Kat needed to be changed. I tried to tell her that I just did that, then my brother said "It's your job to do that! You get paid for doing that!" Yeah, but my hours of working are ONLY 70 a WEEK! Not 24 fucking hours a day! I know her case manager is trying to submit an hour increase to VA DMAS to increase her hours to 12 a day to 84 a week, but there is no approval or denial letter in her hands yet saying the fact that her hours are increased." December 25, 2007 dollforum.com

A2

"It's not so much abusive, as it is he doesn't care. There are indeed times when he is off the clock he complained (I lived with both of them in my house. Not fun.) that he had to do something. And there are times where he is "too tired" and doesn't want to use the contraption he uses to lift her. Which, btw, causes no strain on him. My mother could do it." Will Havens, April 28, 2009 username jtotal, somethingawful.com

A3

An example of his food shopping from self-report: "I spent a lot at the grocery store for food (mostly Geedunks [Navy slang for candy and snacks] and sodas) and got very few "real food" items, I mostly spent it on an iTunes card, four twelve-packs of soda, two four-packs of Red Bull, a shitload of snacks, and only got very, very little meats and real food, the only meat that I got was two tenderloins of pork and turkey. I spent about $190 at Food Lion and had to take the cart home with me, but the moment that I loaded the bags full of food on the sofa, I quickly returned the cart back to the store and bought a Power Ade drink to rehydrate myself going back home, even though I took the shortcut back (and I'm glad I did learn it)." Kevin Havens blog

A4

"Hi all. I had thought it over and over and came to a conclusion: since everyone is singing high praise about the RSSD Taffy, I had decided on one of those for my third doll. As most of you "forumites" (thanks thebunnyboiler for that word Wink) know, I have one of the first generation RSSD's, a Candy. I enjoy her so much that I don't know what I'd do without her. While I still love my Daphne (the name I have for her), but I had wanted to start a 1-RG, 3-doll harem and even though that I wanted a 3-doll harem first, but then when I met my RG, and she supports my doll hobby, the addition of the RG helped, because without her, I wouldn't be half able to even buy the dolls I have now. (The details got me in hot water by others [not you guys here on TDF, but you know what I mean], so I'm not going to say what or why here.) And even though that I had tried my hardest to save up for a $7,000 doll, but it seemed like reality pulled me down to earth and daily expenses are eating into my self-imposed savings plan of $200 every two weeks with some support from my tax refunds (both state and federal) come next February, but I tried to save, but since Kat was in the hospital for a couple of weeks at the end of last month, and I only got two days of pay when she got home because if she's not available, I don't get paid." dollforum.com September 18, 2008

A5

"I feel REALLY stupid now. I thought that I was going to be able to buy my third doll (really doll #2.5 because in order, I had to get rid of my mannequin Andrea in some way), but since Kat had threw a wrench into the works, she told me that she would LEAVE ME if I got another doll. So, I am basically held tight by my balls about my doll hobby by her. She did say that she does accept my hobby and love for dolls, but she tried to say that I was "going overboard" with it, that I had been wavering back and forth about what to do with that "fund" that I had set aside for my third doll." Sept. 23?, 2008 dollforum.com ===A6=== "...And I am glad that I am with my RG, but it had to take the prodding of some people to get me introduced to her, I was going to go on to my doll fallback (I still did anyway, but I'm still with my RG) regardless if it didn't work out. It did and my wonderful mix of dolls and a RG plus a cat is just perfect for me." September 26, 2008. dollforum.com ===A7=== "Hey folks.Today is my birthday. Today I will turn 32. So, I had already gotten a headstart on the drinking part. I had a rum and Coke an hour after I got up (at 6AM EDT), then a beer about 10:30 this morning, now another rum and Coke. I plan on drinking all day long. (Hell, it's five o'clock somewhere...) But the real party would be on the week of the first of May to the eighth, when I get paid. Kat has some things in mind for what to treat me with, and she's been hinting to me that she'll get me an iPod touch, what I have been wanting, for a slightly belated birthday gift. Or a Wii... or something. Oh, and the neat thing is that Kat, who I work for, and also my RG wife (well, not legally) has given me a pseudo-day off, meaning that I can get shitfaced all that I want but I still have to keep some of my job responsibilities in mind so I can still get paid a bit." April 29, 2009 dollforum.com A8 "If I recall correctly, she had put me as a bequeathed beneficiary on her trust fund just in case if something happened to her that if she doesn’t make it (she has a DNR–Do not resusictate–order on file), I would receive all funds necessary to see that her final expenses are paid for. And with her fund over (a lot) in the bank, I would see to it that her final expenses are paid for, all her bills are paid up and such, then I’ll buy myself a RealDoll in nearly the image of Kat (Faces 10 [Angela], 12 [Britney], 11 [Jenny] and maybe 14 [Rui] make perfect candidates), with Body 2, because it matches Kat’s physique. I swore to her that I’ll never date another woman ever again, regardless of what happens. That’s how “forever” we are committed. Of course, I’d have to move out of the freedom of what this apartment afforded me, but that’s a given. But, if I get a RealDoll in nearly Kat’s image, I would never have to lose her if she departs this earth, because I’d name her Kathryn Dawn Gage, in honor of her, not Alexandra Tiffany Tilbrook." Mon Sep 01, 2008 dollforum.com

APPENDIX B: EXAMPLE QUOTES REGARDING BEACH HOUSE

B1

"But the real meat of this part is that Debbie Wilcher tried her hardest to stop me from loving mannequins. She even gave the permission to have Janice Schoger monitor my home directory for any “questionable” documents that I may have typed up about mannequins and giving her full authorization to remove the said offending document, or replace it with a “dummy” file, which when I opened the file, it would open in WordPerfect, the MS-DOS word processor that members could use (only staff could use Windows at that time, members had to be restricted to the MS-DOS environment only), stating that the document was “inappropriate” for storage on a city computer system and if the file or something similar was placed again on the system, my computer privileges would be revoked. Whenever I brought in a Dann Dee catalog, it was removed if I left it out of my sight and she found it, it was contained to a place out of my sight and discarded at the end of the day in the dumpster. So when I got smart and had the Dann Dee catalogs being delivered to me in my name under the Beach House name as the “business name,” I had always monitored my incoming mailbox (I went in every day at that time) to see if a new Dann Dee catalog had came in, and when it did, I’d swoop toward my mailbox, with my backpack in my hand and coolly grabbing the catalog, but making sure that my backpack was unzipped so I could do a “quiet” place-in, then zip back up my backpack and went on my normal day as usual. Only twice that Debbie Wilcher had removed a Dann Dee catalog when I left out of my sight. Each time that she done it, I got a little smarter and found ways to hide the catalog, to be viewed only when I arrived at my house, and at that time, I had my own place to call my own, in the privacy of my own bedroom. I even tried to convince the “bank” at Beach House to let me buy a mannequin from Star Display, because I did have enough to purchase one. So, sneakily convincing that I had enough, I had the request approved and the check cut, I was going down toward the bus stop to get to Virginia Beach Boulevard and get one, right then and there. But the bad thing about it, when I was waiting for the #29 to take me to Pembroke, the person who approved the request reneged, told me to get in her car, and she took me back to Beach House (this was a different staff member in my unit who approved the request), and while we were heading back to Beach House, we took a “long way around,” meaning that she had to talk to me about making insidious requests like that and to never do that, then voided the check and tore it up right in my face. That pissed me off. It must have been the sinister actions of Debbie Wilcher who told Lauren (the staff member who approved the request so I could get a mannequin) to go fetch me, get me back to Beach House and have me think about making requests such like that. (I took the money and bought a computer instead from a pawn shop.)"

B2

"But I still think that it was some bored Beach House member who Googled their stupid day program's name, my blog happened to be on top of the list, and all because of the TRUTHFUL anti-Beach House statements, that bored member somehow was a goon, and enlisted his friends at both SA and BH to get a kick out of it. In fact, Beach House is a strictly anti-doll organization. Even the director, assistant director and staff are against that lifestyle. In fact, they believe that old-fashioned psychotropic drugs like Haldol and Thiordazine are effective than the newer drugs. I outright refused placement on those medications because of how ineffective they really were (just stand at the building opposite from them and notice how many people are talking to themselves--they're mostly on Haldol), and they tried talking about how "time-tested" these were, but I knew better, and I knew my disability better than they did (Thanks Wikipedia!), and I knew what works and what didn't. But they thought my genuine doll interest was a "delusional" behavior, and for that, they prescribe Haldol. They even wanted to give me weekly intramuscular injections of that. That's why I am no longer with them, that should say something... " August 19, 2008 dollforum.com

B3

"But, my hunches of some bored Beach House staff or member got bored in front of one the City's computer terminals (they're 1.2 gigahertz Intel Celeron D processors,512 MB RAM, 50 gigabyte hard drives, Novell NetWare access control, 3 or 5 USB ports, 1 VGA port, legacy PS/2 mouse and keyboard ports, 3com Ethernet jack PCI board, Creative Sound Blaster sound board, and definitely an Intel 915-based video chipset. That thing can be hacked wit free software like "915resoultion". But then it might been my blog. Since I had made so many anti-BH statements many times on my blog, the city manager had sent a letter to me at my program's member mail slot with a "cease and desist" letter from the city department of human services, and also from Pembroke 6, where the main MH unit is here in the city. I posted both cease and desist letters on my blog in PDF format, linked only from my Website and if my hosting provider choked over the overwhelming response over two dolls, one of the comments (non-goon==thank god) was asking "DA" if there was in any law in the books in the city's municipial center about if there was such a law in the books in the SHR citites about forbidding life-size doll ownership. They kept stalling in their entries about how "nasty" doll ownership is, a respectable attorney written in a comment that since ownership of a doll, or any life-sized image of a human being, even a mannequin, may need not be used for the usage of displaying clothes for the purpose to close a sale with two or more parties changing hands, these dolls, whether correct in anatomical features or less, to the point of just being impressionistic (no major sexual reproductive organs) can be procured, dressed (or not) and be giving the doll his or her human personality bestowed upon by the doll's owner. Then he went down for aobut a page of the legal ramifications stating that neither police or sheriff departments; or city agencies with limited police powers... well, he stated that no city agency was allowed to restrict what goes on behind four solid-wood closed doors. And then he concluded that if mental health workers feel like they have an emergency case to remove the doll owner and the dolls because they have an internal belief that dolls are isolation tools and if his dolls are removed without prior permission, I know some laws about that: Breaking and entering. Grand larceny. Disturbing the peace. Forced entry. Trespassing. Obtaining property under false pretenses. And then he told me and Kat (Daphne and Andrea were put up for their sake) that I could sue the city (this was a sheriff) in civil court and there could be less of them."Thu Sep 04, 2008 dollforum.com

B4

"But, still, I still think that it was a bored BH member who decided to search blogs containing their name, that bored member was a SA member, and possibly through three doll-hating members and maybe 15 to 20 doll-bashing staff are under so many orders to get ME back there."Thu Sep 04, 2008 dollforum.com ("BH" is Beach House, and "SA" is SomethingAwful.com, an online forum)

B5

Chesapeake Rhapsody- Archived at [8] A Redux of "Bohemian Rhapsody," by Queen. New lyrics by Kevin Havens.

  Is this a real knife?
  Don't fuck with me when I'm playing Final Fantasy
  Keith's caught in a landslide
  No escape to reality
  Keith better open his eyes
  He better look inside and see
  That he's just an asshole
  He needs no sympathy
  'Cos I'm easy come, he's easy to go
  When he's high, I'm a little mellow
  Any way the wind blows,
  Doesn't really matter to me, no, not me
  Mama, just killed Keith Richardson
  Put a gun to his motherfuckin' head,
  Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
  Mama, I don't care if his life has begun
  But I threw it all away
  Mama, oooo....
  Didn't mean to make his mama cry
  But if I'm not back again this time tommorow,
  Carry on, carry on, but Keith never mattered
  Too late, his time has come
  Sends shivers up his spine
  Betcha his back is aching all the time
  Keith better say his goodbyes, it's time for him to go
  He's gotta leave his friends behind and face the truth
  Mama, oooo... I know that he's gonna die,
  But sometimes I wish he was never born at all
  I see a little silhouetto of a Mountain Dew can
  Scaramouch, Scaramouch, can you do the Slamdango?
  Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very frightening we
  Galileo, Galileo
  Galileo, Galileo
  Galileo figaro - Magnifico...
  Keith's just an asshole, nobody loves him
  He's just an asshole from a sea of AntiEXE
  Spare me my life from this monstrosity
  Easy smokes and Geedunks at the Easy Go,smokerchip
  But are you going to let him go?
  Bismillah! Hell no, I will not let him go (let him go)
  Bismillah! I will not let him go (let him go)
  Bismillah! I will not let him go (let him go)
  Will not let him go, will not let him go, will not let him go...
  Mama mia, mama mia, mama mia, I'm going to let Keith go
  'Cos Beezelbub has a devil put aside for Keith, for Keith
  So you think Keith can stone me and spit in my eye?
  So you think Keith can do this and leave me dying?
  Wo, baby, can't do this to me, baby
  So I got out, I got out out while I could
  Nothing really matters
  As Stratman and I could see
  Nothing really matters
  Nothing really matters
  Nothing really matters to us
  * From: "Bohemian Rhapsody" by Queen.
  * Finally, a true Redux describing my still-pent up anger at Keith Richardson! Well, here it is.
  * Keith can kiss my (and Stratman's) ass(es), for what I care. Go to Hell, Tikeithford. 

B6

I Want To Get Out Of Beach House archived at [9] A Redux of "I Want To Be Sedated," by The Ramones. New lyrics by Kevin Havens and Jason Stratman.

  Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go,
  I want to get out of Beach House
  I'm gonna call up Corey Williams and tell him that he blows,
  I want to get out of Beach House
  I'm getting out of Beach House and drink a lot of Code Red
  And meet a horny woman with really giant boobs
  Because I heard the girls in Great Bridge are really pretty loose!
  Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
  Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go
  I want to get out of Beach House
  Now I don't have to worry about staff getting on my nerves,
  I want to get out of Beach House
  Oh, hurry tomorrow, I'd wish it get here fast,
  So I can tell Debbie Amme that she can kiss my ass!
  I think I hear Coastal Clubhouse calling, oh, how long would it last?
  Oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh
  Bam, bam, bam, bam-bam, I want to get out of Beach House

From: "I Want To Be Sedated," by The Ramones. Using some basis from the Tommy & Rumble version called "I Want To Be A Civilian," from the album Greetings From Va. Beach. Good-bye Beach House, hello Coastal Clubhouse! And yes, Debbie Amme, you may kindly kiss mine and Jason Stratman's asses. We don't need you anymore, and IF you do call Coastal Clubhouse to get our asses suspended over this song, I am going to have the director there talk to Amy Darden and get your motherfuckin' ass fired. So how do you like THAT, huh?

APPENDIX C: EXAMPLE QUOTES REGARDING OBSESSION AND DELUSIONS REGARDING "DOLLS"

C1

"Right now I have Daphne by my side and I can feel her presence strongly and she is hinting to me what to say here. To some people, they'll think you're schizo. I may have Asperger's, but there is no way in hell that I'm schizophrenic. These dolls have a nice presence that even a few minutes spent with one, it's felt for forever. I may want a robotic partner if something happens to Kathryn (my RealGirl), and I know that it is not too far off. Not the possible separation of me and Kathryn, but I know the offering of maybe somewhat-limited robotic partners is not too far away. I'm safely predicting 2010-2015 at the earliest. Not too far away FWIW." My three cents. CGM, Kathryn and Daphne" October 12, dollforum.com

C2

"And all because I treat Daphne like a person that she wants to be. I shower her with gifts, I even give her birthday and Christmas gifts. I give her gifts (and Kat also) "just because." That is how much I care. That's why Daphne has held up this long." September 23, 2008 dollforum.com

C3

"But as I said, I march to the beat of my own drum and if others doesn't like what I do with my own life, then that's too bad. They don't live with me, they don't see me on a daily basis, and they simply don't run my life. My RG's my boss (really. I'm her aide, but there's other factors involved) and basically the only people (including inanimate people) I follow orders from is mainly Kat and Daphne. ....I am married-at-heart (for reasons I will not explain here) to my RG; and I am married in another kind of way to Daphne, my doll. I had once stated before that Daphne is my doll wife and Kat is my RG wife." September 26, 2008 dollforum.com

C4

"You also talked about "the day" when love dolls "breathe, speaks and thinks on her own," and I long for that day also, in fact, every time I see a domestic gynoid demonstrated on the news, I silently quip "make her look more realistic and stick a functioning vagina on her, I'll buy her!" In fact, I used to watch the show Small Wonder back in the 80s and was a very dedicated follower. October 29,2008 dollforum.com